Sunday, February 26, 2017

A641.7.3.RB - Appreciating Your “Real Self”

When a leader is ready to initiate intentional change they may need to look beyond just changing their career skills, they may need to look deeper than that.  While a leader can certainly strengthen the skills that got them to where they are in their professional life or focus on improving their weaknesses, however, by limiting their view to only professional skills they may be missing the whole picture.  McKee, Boyatzis, and Johnston (2008) stated people who want real change will need to look at all aspects of their lives, not just leadership skills. 

After completely the exercises, I came to the realization that when my parenting or professional skills are struggling it is often a result of something bigger in my life.  One of the major factors in my ability to function as a leader, mom, or wife is the amount of running I do in any given week.   The more I run the better I perform in other aspects of my life.  I believe it goes beyond just the physiological factors of running.  I believe my ability to handle the other parts of my life after running is due to the meditative state I am able to achieve while on a run.  While this state doesn’t happen on every run, some runs are specifically meant to train for an upcoming race, but others are all about just getting our the door and listening to my body and clearing my mind.  By taking this time to “check-out” I am more able to be present with others.  Clayton (2015) found that exercise helping work-home integration via increased self-efficacy, which he found made people less likely to avoid difficult tasks or situations, and more likely to see them as challenges to be mastered.  This is exactly the feeling I have after a run, I feel like I can take on just about anything thrown at me.

After finishing the timeline of my life, I found that I am not afraid to take on difficult tasks and opportunities.  Throughout my life, I have made some difficult decisions that have led to some personal challenges.  I divorced my first husband in order to leave a volatile situation, which left me as a single mother struggling to get by.  The next change came after years of therapy around my mother’s abusive behavior.  I finally realized that what was happening was not my fault and I needed to put some space between us.  This was one of the best things I have ever done for myself.  My well-being has improved tremendously since breaking the ties.  Another major change for me was my leaving my job to care for our children.  I have had a job for as long as I can remember, so the idea of not bringing in money and depending on another, my husband, was difficult for me.  I have since come to realize that it was necessary and thankfully my husband has never once made me feel that I do not contribute to the family.  In fact, he often feels my job, as a stay at home mom, is more important than his, which pays the bills.  All of these choices were risky, however, I made them based on a long thought-out plan devised from many hours of calculating what-ifs.  While they all contained a certain amount of risk they were not reckless.  This type of calculated risk taking will serve me in my leadership role as well.  As Reardon (2014) pointed out People who become good leaders have a greater than average willingness to make bold moves, but they strengthen their chances of success, and avoid career suicide, through careful deliberation and preparation.  There is a huge difference between calculated and reckless risk. 

The last realization I made was around my social identity and lifeline.  I was enlightened to the fact that I often place myself in the role of caretaker or “fixer”, it is a role I have had since I was a child.  It was always my job to “fix” my mother when she would deteriorate mentally, unfortunately, I learned early that I needed to be the “good child” on days she was really bad off.   I continue this pattern today, I am always there to try and fix any problems others might have.  Given this trait about myself, I have found that a lot of my friends are people who are in almost constant need of support.  The other type of friend I have are people who are just like me.  My husband often jokes that most of my close friends are just clones of myself.  What I have realized from that statement is that they do have characteristics of me, but mostly the positive ones.  de Klepper, Sleebos, van de Bunt, and Agneessens (2009) stated that it is a well-established finding in social sciences is that people who are friends exhibit a great deal of similarity in attitudes and behaviors.  The question becomes why does this hold true.  It would seem that we like to surround ourselves with people in whom we see positive qualities that we either have ourselves or strive to.  This certainly holds true for a large portion of my friends.  My other friends are those whom I feel need my help. 

After stepping back and reviewing the exercises, I have realized I need to learn ways to help me become more mindful.  I tend to take very little time for myself other than running, making me often feel frustrated and overwhelmed.  Boyatzis and McKee (2005) stated reflection, contemplation, meditation, cognitive training are all ways to explore your inner world and are all critical to developing mindfulness.  My goal from here is to find more ways to work these into my day.  I need to start by carving out a time to spend at least 10-15 alone with no distractions to clear my head and try to live in the present.      


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